For some reason my last few LJ entries didn't make it over here so I'm going to copy/paste them here and then delete the old LJ.
My dear sweet Clay aka the Penguin passed away last night.
Sadly, it was a long struggle at the end. Back in July he came down with a terrible case of shingles. He still had it in September; he also had a boatload of oxycontin for his pain. The oxy on top of his general state of weakness resulted in MULTIPLE falls. He wound up fracturing every single thoracic vertebrae. At the end of October or maybe it was early November he had those vertebrae fused together with a rod.
And that was the beginning of the end. He bounced back and forth from the hospital where he had the surgery, to a local rehabilitation center, and the local hospital. He caught various infections both respiratory and in his incision. At the end, he had double pneumonia, pink eye, and the incision site had developed something they call tunneling.
He passed away at 9:30ish last night; I said goodbye at 6:30
I'm really tired of all this sick and dying. And god damn political fuckwittery.
Can't we have something nice for a change?
I have in my hands a shiny new gun permit. Back in the stalker!days I went out and got a permit but never bought a gun.
I will be going to the gun store today. I will be buying a gun soon [whatever the waiting period is].
I will be armed and ready when they come for us.
Because I saw FOUR filing cabinets of conceal carry permits in the Sheriff's department I will be taking a conceal carry class because I must be able to defend myself when the god damn Nazi's come.
Plus, break-ins are on the up because my county is now the 3rd highest in heroin related crime.
What a god damned time to be alive.
here are pictures of the girls to make you smile
Life on Doxepin for IBS:
Sleeping hard having Intense dreams. INTENSE. And often the same exact dream over and over. It's hard to wake up in the morning, like full on depression hard. The drugstore didn't fill the scrip the way it was written. They gave the pills to me in a form that I Can't take them as prescribed or as filled so now, I am taking it at lunch to help stave off the dreams and restlessness at night.
Actual IBS: Holy cow! What a major improvement. I cannot tell you how much a proper movement can improve every aspect of your life. JFC.
Trigger foods that still trigger: Cider. Cantaloupes. Those may have been an isolated incidence though; there were other things going on so I'm going to try one more time before putting them on the No list. Coffee. I had Two cups of coffee Saturday and oh boy. I was flying high on the caffeine, but coffee is a gut stimulant and boy, was I stimulated. One cup of coffee on Sunday [i drink tea the rest of the time] and everything was just fine.
Things I Can Enjoy Again: Dairy but I'm dedicated to the lactase and I'm also not eating it every day. Raw veggies like broccoli, cooked veggies like ASPARAGUS I ate asparagus last night [with a beano cause that's what the gastro-enterologist said to do]. I haven't had asparagus in a year or more. I LOVE VEGETABLES and now I can finally eat them again and stop eating MEAT and Starch at every damn meal. Cooked beans!!!!! I can do chili's and soups!!!!!!
Going back to school
I initially thought to go full time this fall. I'm going to slow that down. As long as Trump is in office and the health care industry is in chaos; I'm going to stay in my secure job. We aren't looking at moving for another 8 years or so so there is plenty of time.
There are six classes that I can take as a part time student that will go towards the degree. If I do them a semester or so at a time I can pace myself to entering the program when things will hopefully be less terrifying. Meanwhile, I've placed out of math. HA HA HA. I can't math. I couldn't answer ANY of the math questions on the TEAS practice test so I had to order some math for dummy books. So, I've placed out of math HA but because I didn't take traditional English courses in college I have to take the placement test for English. I asked if having a Bachelor's degree could help me avoid this and they more or less laughed. This knocks me out of starting this semester. I plan to work on my math skills this semester and take a course or two in the fall. I'd do summer but summer is my busy season
Comes and goes when you least expect it. Everything will be fine and then I'll remember something or see/smell/hear/ and then I'm overwhelmed. We went through Tom's building and took a bunch of his tools and stuff to my house [inheritance]. It fucked me up for the whole weekend.
TV continues to be something I'm struggling or just plain not interested in. I'm enjoying Taboo and Vikings was entertaining if uneven. I've started Stitched, The Magicians, and Shadowhunters and I'm underwhelmed by the blahness of them. I had a short resurgence in the DC CW shows but that ended abruptly and I've no idea why.
I got myself a library card and picked up a book for Julia [I've asked her what she wants to read and we're going from there] and I wandered to the Young Adult section and picked up Tamorah Pierce on Andrea's recommendation. Our library isn't open on the weekends due to a lack of funding so I'm going to start utilizing them more to try and get their numbers up.
Took the kids and dogs! hiking yesterday. Did a tiny bit of running with Fury. I'm hoping I can keep some momentum going and move a bit every day this week
I think that's it
I gained 15 pounds in two weeks. I wasn't eating that much food. I pondered what it could be; then I discovered my thyroid medication wasn't the correct dose. Further investigation at the pharmacy revealed my dosage has been incorrect since January.
You had ONE job pharmacist. Thanks, CVS. I'm glad it only made me gain 15 pounds and didn't you know, kill me.
I wonder how horribly long it will take to lose. How much money I will have to spend on clothes in the meantime because I really can NOT wear my existing clothes?
That new end agreement is my good-bye. I'll be at dreamwidth, same name. Friend me if you like