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[turnonmyheels]

I ... think I'm coming out of this depression. I'm starting AND finishing projects around the house and at work. Sometimes I think, hey great job! Instead of constantly downing myself. This is awesome. Except I've been making some really egregious errors at work. I've had some good excuses about my meds getting mixed up and changed around and fucking me up, but that's only good for so much. At some point, you've got to make yourself stop fucking up and just do better.

So here's me, trying to do better.

I'm getting up in the mornings again. Not early enough for exercise but I'm early at work like I like.

I haven't had a prozac in about a week and I feel better than I did when I was on them. It's time for my PMS so I'll take them for the next few days and see how things go. I wonder if the Prozac while allowing me to do something other than sleep for the past year hasn't done some other things to me that now I'm feeling a bit more like me I can actually do something about them.

Despite all the fucking up, I did get a raise last week. \o/

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[stoney321]

I'll be interested to see how the meds have been affecting you in other ways, too.

I'm proud of you. This is awesome. This is also a good bit of inspiration for me, too. Look at you changing the world!! (Yours and mine at least) <3

[turnonmyheels]

I know for a fact it turned my Give a fuck off. I'm a bit afraid that when it comes back I'm going to be a neurotic mess. Neurotic messes are easier for me than depressions

[crazydiamondsue]

YAY, raise!

I'm glad you've been able to slow the Prozac. My depression has been manageable, but Eddie and I have both had some serious weight gain this year and I'm starting to worry (even more, which creates more anxiety) about related health issues.

[turnonmyheels]

My last raise meant I could keep the Y at my same income. This time it's way better cause I'm actually making more than before.

I hear you on the weight loss. The three pounds I got off of the thyroid medication fail are back. I'm afraid of what it's going to take to get rid of it

[ldthomps]

YAY, raise! And the reasons to give you a raise include being the kind of employee who actually Wants to fix things, as opposed to being sure it's just fine.

Even MORE YAY, feeling better! I hope it continues <3 <3 <3.

[turnonmyheels]

Me too. Hello you!