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turnonmyheelsFandom: The Vampire Diaries
Title: Throw Yourself From Skin to Skin
Pairing: Damon/anyone he damn well wants
Rating: Adult
Warnings: Damon is a vampire. There will be death, rape, torture, sex, bloodplay, etc.
Summary: Damon screws (with) Mystic Falls, episode by episode.
Spoilers: 1.22 Founder's Day
Notes: thank you![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
moosesal for the beta
Previous parts here
Skin to Skin 22 Founder’s Day
Damon backs off of Elena’s porch and heads down the street trying to place the emotions he’s feeling. Elation because Elena kissed him is easy enough to identify and it feels so good it almost, almost washes out the other emotions coursing through him.
The confrontation with Jeremy is making him feel regret. He’s not unfamiliar with it in the sense that there are people and things that he has wanted to do and didn’t, but in this sense? Regret for taking Jeremy’s memories but not taking away the pain? It’s more painful than he ever imagined regret could be. It’s a little gnawing hole in the pit of his gut making him wonder about all the people he’s compelled through the years. Was it only superficial and nothing deeper? For everyone? Did they all have the sense that they had lost something important and mourned it like Jeremy?
It puts everything he’s done through the years into a light he’s not yet ready to face. Why dwell on the past when there’s so much in the present he’s got to make right? He has to start over with Stefan, there’s no way around that. But how? How can he start over with Stefan when they’re right back at the place they were when it all began? They’re both in love with the same woman and tonight, Elena crossed a line. Well, he crossed it first but she followed him over it. It was a line he never thought she’d cross, and that sends him into a spiral of emotions that threaten to overwhelm him. He needs time. Time to sort through the events of tonight and the past few months.
Most importantly he has to find a way to deal with this … shame he’s feeling. He, Damon Salvatore, is feeling shame. Not because he kissed his brother’s girlfriend, not even because she kissed him back and obviously liked it. No, it was because of Jenna. The look on her face when she interrupted them made his guts churn. He wanted to shield Elena from that look of disapproval and apologize to Jenna for what had transpired between them.
Damon doesn’t light the fire when he reaches the boarding house; he’s had enough fire to last him the rest of his life tonight. He pours a hefty glass of scotch and sits in his favorite chair in front of the fireplace and tries to answer the question burning inside of him.
Where do I go from here?
Author's Note: This fic has been remarkable for *me* for a few reasons:
1) I have this near-inability to write in the past tense. I never really noticed it until someone on my flist [I believe it was blamebrampton but I will not swear to that] posted a poll inquiring about how people felt about reading fic in the present tense. I was surprised at how many people out there said they found present tense to not be as enjoyable, or suspect, etc. I took that as a personal challenge to write more in the past tense. I completely and utterly failed with my Big Bang. 1864 fic in the present tense is not as ridiculous as it sounds, I SWEAR. As usual when this started I could NOT get anything to happen in the past tense so I gave up. And then I switched from Damon's POV to a human POV and *that* chapter flowed in past tense like it was something I always write.
I made a conscientious decision at that point to write all vampire POVs in the present tense and all human POVs in the past tense. I think it gives the vampires a sense of permanence because everything is happening now, even flashbacks are happening now. I think it adds weight to the human POVs as well. It mademoosesal want to shake me for a minute until she asked me if I was doing it intentionally, once she realized I was I'm pretty sure she rolled her eyes and shook her head.
2) I haven't completed a multi-chapter fic this long in my life. The last time I came close, it was back when I eating, breathing, and sleeping Queer as Folk -- but that fic only had about 8 parts. I guess that means Damon Salvatore = Brian Kinney? IDEK
3) I've never followed an entire season episode by episode. Most of the fic I write happens in the "now" as the show is airing or while I'm digesting it. I never imagined when I started this that we'd be halfway through season 2 before I finished.
4) Season 1 Damon was hands down my favorite character in a show *filled* to bursting with characters I loved. Season 2? Caroline has become my favorite character, I wasn't sure I'd be able to finish this fic with my attention drawn so hard to Caroline [and Tyler because their stories have been so intermeshed] so if you're wondering why it's so Caroline heavy in places when I could have explored what Damon was doing with other people, it's because I am obsessed with Vampire Barbie.
5) It was important to me that I show how Damon changed and grew as a vampire from the pilot to the finale and going back and reading just these two parts, I started in the right place and I ended in the right place -- I'm hoping that all the steps in between work as well.
6) Some people have asked if there will be a sequel. I found that hysterical! It was so amazing that people thought I would *finish* this much less write another part. At this point I'm not planning on it. However, provided my favorite vampire is still dead and kicking it at the end of season two [SPOIL ME AND YOU DIE] there will most likely be a Caroline-centric version.
Title: Throw Yourself From Skin to Skin
Pairing: Damon/anyone he damn well wants
Rating: Adult
Warnings: Damon is a vampire. There will be death, rape, torture, sex, bloodplay, etc.
Summary: Damon screws (with) Mystic Falls, episode by episode.
Spoilers: 1.22 Founder's Day
Notes: thank you
moosesal for the betaPrevious parts here
Skin to Skin 22 Founder’s Day
Damon backs off of Elena’s porch and heads down the street trying to place the emotions he’s feeling. Elation because Elena kissed him is easy enough to identify and it feels so good it almost, almost washes out the other emotions coursing through him.
The confrontation with Jeremy is making him feel regret. He’s not unfamiliar with it in the sense that there are people and things that he has wanted to do and didn’t, but in this sense? Regret for taking Jeremy’s memories but not taking away the pain? It’s more painful than he ever imagined regret could be. It’s a little gnawing hole in the pit of his gut making him wonder about all the people he’s compelled through the years. Was it only superficial and nothing deeper? For everyone? Did they all have the sense that they had lost something important and mourned it like Jeremy?
It puts everything he’s done through the years into a light he’s not yet ready to face. Why dwell on the past when there’s so much in the present he’s got to make right? He has to start over with Stefan, there’s no way around that. But how? How can he start over with Stefan when they’re right back at the place they were when it all began? They’re both in love with the same woman and tonight, Elena crossed a line. Well, he crossed it first but she followed him over it. It was a line he never thought she’d cross, and that sends him into a spiral of emotions that threaten to overwhelm him. He needs time. Time to sort through the events of tonight and the past few months.
Most importantly he has to find a way to deal with this … shame he’s feeling. He, Damon Salvatore, is feeling shame. Not because he kissed his brother’s girlfriend, not even because she kissed him back and obviously liked it. No, it was because of Jenna. The look on her face when she interrupted them made his guts churn. He wanted to shield Elena from that look of disapproval and apologize to Jenna for what had transpired between them.
Damon doesn’t light the fire when he reaches the boarding house; he’s had enough fire to last him the rest of his life tonight. He pours a hefty glass of scotch and sits in his favorite chair in front of the fireplace and tries to answer the question burning inside of him.
Where do I go from here?
Author's Note: This fic has been remarkable for *me* for a few reasons:
1) I have this near-inability to write in the past tense. I never really noticed it until someone on my flist [I believe it was blamebrampton but I will not swear to that] posted a poll inquiring about how people felt about reading fic in the present tense. I was surprised at how many people out there said they found present tense to not be as enjoyable, or suspect, etc. I took that as a personal challenge to write more in the past tense. I completely and utterly failed with my Big Bang. 1864 fic in the present tense is not as ridiculous as it sounds, I SWEAR. As usual when this started I could NOT get anything to happen in the past tense so I gave up. And then I switched from Damon's POV to a human POV and *that* chapter flowed in past tense like it was something I always write.
I made a conscientious decision at that point to write all vampire POVs in the present tense and all human POVs in the past tense. I think it gives the vampires a sense of permanence because everything is happening now, even flashbacks are happening now. I think it adds weight to the human POVs as well. It made
moosesal want to shake me for a minute until she asked me if I was doing it intentionally, once she realized I was I'm pretty sure she rolled her eyes and shook her head. 2) I haven't completed a multi-chapter fic this long in my life. The last time I came close, it was back when I eating, breathing, and sleeping Queer as Folk -- but that fic only had about 8 parts. I guess that means Damon Salvatore = Brian Kinney? IDEK
3) I've never followed an entire season episode by episode. Most of the fic I write happens in the "now" as the show is airing or while I'm digesting it. I never imagined when I started this that we'd be halfway through season 2 before I finished.
4) Season 1 Damon was hands down my favorite character in a show *filled* to bursting with characters I loved. Season 2? Caroline has become my favorite character, I wasn't sure I'd be able to finish this fic with my attention drawn so hard to Caroline [and Tyler because their stories have been so intermeshed] so if you're wondering why it's so Caroline heavy in places when I could have explored what Damon was doing with other people, it's because I am obsessed with Vampire Barbie.
5) It was important to me that I show how Damon changed and grew as a vampire from the pilot to the finale and going back and reading just these two parts, I started in the right place and I ended in the right place -- I'm hoping that all the steps in between work as well.
6) Some people have asked if there will be a sequel. I found that hysterical! It was so amazing that people thought I would *finish* this much less write another part. At this point I'm not planning on it. However, provided my favorite vampire is still dead and kicking it at the end of season two [SPOIL ME AND YOU DIE] there will most likely be a Caroline-centric version.
